wish that time can slow down abit for today ..

Yesterday I was crying in the middle of the night .. Maybe was thinking about him then lead me to think of what happen recently ba .. I was thinking of that time because of me, let him in pain till that state :( From his expression i can feel that the pain was killing him, but there was nothing i can do to make him feel better .. This makes me feel damn useless :( And the worst thing was instead of saying sorry to him, i cried infront of him .. This make things worsen because i still let him worry when he was in pain :( So, sometimes i wish that i can be more mature, as i dont want and dont wish to let him worry too much about me because i dont want and dont wish to become a burden to him .. Can i dont say if im unwell? Cos i will easily feel unwell de but i dont want him to worry too much about me .. But if i got problems i will tell him de this is a sure :) Okay dont want to say about this anymore .. Thinking about tomorrow .. Will i get into trouble on the first day? Will i get along with my colleagues? Will i ... aiyo so fan sia .. Wish me goodluck for my attachment ba .. Love you always teddy :)

Elieen love Aaron :)

at home so bored ..

Afternoon slacking at home .. (same as teddy :P) facing com the whole day .. Today dont know why i think of alot of things .. as in future things .. I thinking about next year .. around new year should i bring teddy to my grandma house? Maybe you all think is funny, but to me i think is a serious question as i never told of my loveones (as in family) about teddy before .. So, if i bring teddy to my grandma house it means that i have to prepared to tell them that teddy is my bf and etc etc .. Ohya today, i suddenly have the urge to ask teddy if i can taunt at his house :P Of cos not now la .. Maybe after my attachment i might ask him :) Hope that i can taunt at his house for afew days :P MISS YOU MISS YOU MISS YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU :) :) :)

Elieen love Aaron :)

missing you now~

Around 10plus wakeup and thinking of bloging this .. Teddy let me know alot of things .. Examples .. He let me know what is love .. What is boy girl relationship .. What is happiness .. What is sadness .. How does missing a person feels like .. How does is feel like being loved by someone .. How does being protected feels like .. How does holding hands feels like .. How does hugging feels like .. How does heart pain feels like .. etc etc .. Gonna miss teddy tons and tons .. Cos after attachment starts, i wont be able to meetup with him often le :( And cant update often when attachment starts .. But will try to update when having off days :)

Elieen love Aaron :)

sweet day for me :)

Around 12plus when out to meet teddy :) On the way to teddy's house bought bubbletea for me and teddy :) Around 1plus reach teddy's house .. Then teddy read the card that i do for him .. so embarrassing :P But the fun part is, when he saw i taken down the messages that he sms me, he was like so shocked :P Muhahahaha .. my motive has achieved :P But time flies :( around 7plus, teddy see me to busstop .. Then home sweet home :) Attachment going start le .. cant get to see teddy often le sad :( Will miss you tons de .. and lastly LOVE YOU TEDDY~ :) :) :)

Elieen love Aaron :)

morning~ :)

Yesterday night never sleep well again .. Alone at home again .. :( Around 9plus wakeup, wana sleep back but need to do alot of things so pull myself to up .. Now eating bread and blogging at the same time :P Finally today can see teddy le :) :) :) Miss him so much :P

Elieen love Aaron :)

whole day at home ..

Sad la today bo people jio me out .. At home audi, blog, surf net .. Bored die me le :( Lucky tomorrow going out :) :) :) if not i will die at home de .. Going attachment soon le .. nervous sia .. Haiz why time fly so fast de .. Hope that time can slow down abit .. Ohya gfs goodluck for your attachment :) Will miss ya de :) Must miss me too ya :) Missing teddybear now ..

Elieen love Aaron :)

every morning alone at home ..

Yesterday night never sleep well :( keep on wakeup in the middle of the night .. Today around 9plus wakeup, at home so bored .. Lucky got teddy and audi accompany me :P My blog damn lot problems .. Make me wana delete everything zz

Elieen love Aaron :)